Healing ~ what a magnificent word!!
Are you journeying ~ either emotionally or spiritually or both?
Welcome to my world of healing for the past ten years. It has been a tumultuous and bumpy ride.
Coming to place of acceptance and total forgiveness of oneself and others takes concentration and just plain old hard work. Realizing that we all belong to an infinite whole while still maintaining our separateness and individuality in this unity leads me to the belief that in order to fully heal, I must completely forgive myself and then fully embrace self love. Only then will the real healing take place.
I was recently presented with a challenge to spend time with a person who had harmed me not only physically but emotionally as well. This was a person I have know my whole life, I have trusted, I have loved. But then a year ago, all these hurts were forced to explode into my awareness like a volcano spewing molten lava over my emotions, burning, burning, burning until they were laid raw and then continuing to spew voluminous amount of steam as I worked my way through each of them.
Forgiving this person was a difficult challenge. I regularly used the Ho'oponopono Prayer which I sent to this person daily.
I love you,
I am sorry,
Please forgive me,
Thank you.
You may wonder ~ why would I ask this person to forgive me when it was not I who had done the wrong.
As energetic beings we all belong to and come from the same Source. So in judging and condemning this person, I am effectively doing the same to myself. Asking their forgiveness is the same as giving it.
In her book "Dying to be Me", Anita Moorjani said, "Each one of us is like a single thread in a huge
tapestry, woven in a complex and colorful pattern. We may be only one strand, yet we’re all integral to the finished image. We affect the lives of others just by choosing whether or not to be our true selves. Our only obligation to others, our only purpose, is to express our uniqueness and allow others to do the same."
Through this past year I worked to release the feelings of anger surrounding the circumstances and situation which brought me here. Then as I prepared to come face to face with this person, I felt trepidation and concern. Would the old feelings resurface as we came together?
The journey of healing is never complete, but we can make tremendous gains by constantly releasing the negative and angry and affirming the positive and loving.
These insights were sent to me by a dear friend as I prepared for this visit.
"You are more than up to the challenge and that is how you have managed to orchestrate being in their presence as there is releasing, healing and transformation that needs to happen for everyone. Allow them to be who they need to be, and you on the other hand will shine your love light brightly, you have this within you, I have seen it and felt it, so let it shine bright. You will come through this event with Love, compassion and profound understanding that people who "act out" are simply crying out their emotional wounds that need healing yet they do not know this and cannot grasp this concept ~ it is like they are trying to hold the wind in their hands. Be your kindest ever and you will see the inner little child that is hurt, angry and just wants all of their pain to go away. When you re-emerge back into non physical, you will have the opportunity to review this situation and I know in my heart of hearts that you would like to see yourself as being a catalyst in their journey of healing rather than a catalyst into deeper inner sorrow."
As this person came to my home, I immediately felt an immense dark energy surrounding them, but then through that negativity and darkness, I saw that little child who was angry and hurt. Our time together ended with me feeling pity and sorrow for this child who could not release these dark and heavy emotions.
It would be easy for me to say, I have arrived, but no, I must continue on my journey of healing, using Reiki to self heal daily, receiving Reiki when I can, giving Reiki when the honour is presented to me.
Then and only then, will my healing continue in the direction which I choose to travel.
Today I choose to respond with LOVE and gratitude ...
