Release

This year, 2015 is my year of self mastery, truly learning to live the life of a Reiki Master, emotionally, physically and spiritually. As I journey forward, I use distance Reiki sending to all the situations throughout my life that have left scars ~ felt or not felt, seen or unseen. Although it seems  I have released the emotions surrounding various incidents, my body retains the cellular memory from each and every traumatic event I have gone through. So day by day, I send Reiki to each traumatic situation to heal and release at the cellular level, encouraging my body to move into a more healthful state, embracing what is natural ~ health not dis-ease.

All the decisions and actions made though the years have created our lives, not only in this life, but in past lives as well. Every action has a reaction and ultimately comes back to us. If we adopt the truth that we are responsible for everything we experience in life, we will be centered in our power, able to create positive and lasting change in our lives.

Negative experiences are our own actions coming full circle and as long as that negative serves us it will remain. By using the wisdom and love of Reiki we are able to take responsibility for them. Reiki guides healing and balances energy bringing us to a healthful place, emotionally, physically and spiritually. This prevents additional negative actions and breaks the vicious downward spiral that can lead to feelings of victimization. These seemingly negative experiences contain important lessons ~ in fact, they are exactly what we need to learn to progress on our spiritual path. Embrace them as a learning gift ~ there are no coincidences.

My spiritual path is connecting me to my true nature ~ love, wisdom and personal power that are within me. As I begin to identify with my deeply healed self, I come closer to the ultimate goal of my journey. But, to achieve this, it is necessary to heal and release all the parts of myself which are not deeply healed. Reiki gently guides me through this process, giving me the healing and understanding to move forward, mastering my self and embracing life as a true Master.

And so it is ....

I am everything and everyone, I am no longer a fragment of the universe, I am the universe 

.... Jim Carey 

Soul Connections

Have you ever met someone and been overwhelmed with the feeling you've met them before? Or do you have a friend that even though you may have only been friends a short time, it feels like you've spent a lifetime together?

We may know someone in a relationship on this earth, but deep within our soul there is a different connection, a connection that transcends time and lifetimes.  There is a good chance that your soul recognizes the person and you know instinctively that this is someone with whom there is history. Quite often the people that we shared our past lives with are the same people we share our current life with. We may not come back in the same roles though. For example, your mother in a previous lifetime could be your daughter in this life. Or someone that you hated in a previous life could be your best friend in this life. It’s not unusual for us to come across people in our current lifetime with whom we shared another lifetime. Here are some signs that we may have shared a lifetime with someone who is currently in our lives.

• An immediate positive or negative connection or reaction.
• A strong sense of déjà vu.
• You share a telepathic connection.
• You recognize something in their eyes.
• A short lived but very intense relationship.

Those souls that we share a deep connection with and who we have chosen to learn and grow with, are the ones who are in our lives to teach us the most profound lessons. 

Recently I have met several people with whom I have formed an instant but very deep bond, a friendship and love so much deeper than anything I ever experienced previously. An innate knowing that we have been through much more than what this lifetime has provided.

These relationships that sustain us through many lifetimes will always come back to you. Souls know each other, even though we may not. And will always seek each other out on this earthly plane. They come together always so we may learn the lessons necessary to move on.

What is happening in this relationship now? Look for the lesson. If you are being challenged in some way either positively or negatively, this a good sign that there  is a soul connection here.

Is someone helping you with no expectations? This is a sure sign that you most likely have helped in a past life and that is being paid forward.

Are you in a situation that seems familiar to you, like you've been through this before? We have all come into this lifetime with particular lessons to learn. We may learn the lesson the first time, but if not, we will repeat it until we do. If you repeat a past experience but with a different person then this is another sign of a deep past-life connection. As you failed to learn the lesson in the past, you have been gifted a new ‘teacher’. Herein lies the lesson ~ once you recognize that you and not the other person, are the common denominator, you will release the lesson and the situation with them will change. They will either leave your life and this lesson will not be repeated, or your relationship will continue but in an entirely different way.

Soul Connections

There have been many lives

That I have lived

They come to me one by one

These friendships in my life

We've travelled before and will travel again

As my consciousness rises

So to does my knowing

I want to reach past the physical 

To touch your soul

Reminding me of who we were

And what we had 
The love we shared

So I wait for the times when the visions break through

A glimpse of long ago life

In a country far away

I see the colours, I hear the sounds

I feel the heart of is country

Beat within mine

Take me back to that time

So I can relive these experiences

If only in my mind for a while

Let me touch you as I touched you then

Let me hold you as I held you then

Let me once again know you as I knew you then ....

A Shaman ~ My Friend, My Healing

Today I was privileged to be the recipient of a reiki session with a dear friend who is a Celtic shaman and reiki master.

What an incredible experience!!! Her reiki was gentle and soothing much like herself. A beautiful CD of Sanskrit chanting quietly played in the background as we began. I felt myself falling deeper and deeper into that lovely place where nothing matters but the energy. As I went deeper, I went back through life after life until I found myself on a crystal clear lake with a woman in a white robe. She was familiar to me as I was to learn she was me, a powerful healer around the time of the Druids.

After our session, we discussed what she had felt and seen. She explained how she saw that I "swallowed" my emotions which is so true. Being raised in a highly religious home, sexuality was a taboo subject, good girls didn't do it and always waited till marriage. We were raised with the fear of going to hell and the judgement of what church friends would think if we stepped out of line. 

Consequently although I have undergone a massive healing over the past few years, there is still much to be healed. Acknowledging this is my first step. Having swallowed down emotions and not speaking my truths, I have developed physical symptoms which are my clue that I must heal this part of my psyche. Many, many, problems in and around my sacral and root chakra, digestive problems, years and years of issues with my reproductive system, multiple miscarriages, followed by surgeries to remove all of my reproductive organs. By repressing my emotions, I developed a hiatus hernia along with gastric reflux. So I realize that in order to physically heal, I must accept and love myself back to health. 

This I can and will accomplish ...

Following our beautiful session, I sat peacefully all afternoon co-creating with Spirit.

Healing

Her hands gently touch my face
The hands of this beautiful soul sister 

I feel the energy flow

Slowly at first, then faster and harder

My body and soul cries out for this energy

Dark, primal thoughts assault my senses

Ancient memories intrude

As past lives float in and out of my consciousness
On a crystal, glass lake I drift ~ I see a woman in a white robe
I am her and she is me
I am floating, I am rocking, I am pulsing 

The energy is soft, the energy is hard

It is gentle, it is everywhere 

My dreams are constantly interrupted

As my body tries to clear the blocks

I will myself to control my body's movements 

But they are stronger than my will

Muscles jump and my torso spasms
"Let the energies flow" I hear again and again

Now I sense her hands moving through my chakras

They are on me, in me, going through me

Our hearts beat as one as her soul lays gently on mine
And the energy opens, releases and clears the blocks

Throughout my body

Sweet, pure love is what I sense

Flowing through the hands of this woman I love

I have known her before, we are bound through our life experiences

The love is pulsing and beating to my very core

To the part of me that wants to stay hidden
It is awoken, crying out "heal me"

I am a goddess, I am divine
I am a healer and have healed

Through many, many lives
I see again the woman in white robes, we are one
A healer, a priestess, she walks through my mind
I am becoming who I was born to be
But first I must embrace myself ~ all of me
My spiritual, my emotional and my physical
Embrace my feminine self, my sexuality
Release the guilt, the deep dark parts of me
The parts I keep secret

Acknowledge, accept and release my shame

Lovingly accept all of me

Forgiving myself as I continue the healing journey

Towards this magnificent woman, in love with herself and her life

Always remembering ~ I am worthy ...

Human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind .... William James

The illusion holds power over you when you are not able to remember that you are a powerful spirit that has taken on the physical experience for the purpose of learning .... Gary Zukov

Spiritualism and Ego

Ego has been a recurring theme in my life of late. I have been confronted over and over again with egoic reactions from spiritual people that I had elevated to a higher position than maybe I should have. I have looked up to these mentors / spiritual advisors and in doing so have erred by elevating them to a status higher than myself. And when those foundations cracked it shattered me.

Even in my own life I find my own reactions to different circumstances and accomplishments nudge my ego and wake it up. But by recognizing my ego' whispers, I quickly re-adjust my thought process and allow humility to be my driving force rather than an egoic centre.

I am not saying that we should discard ego or remove it entirely from our personality which theoretically is not possible, but allowing it to rule our thoughts gets us into trouble again and again.

The spiritual and newly awakened world has experienced rapid growth in the last few years and that growth has opened an avenue for big business. Should we allow ourselves to fall into that trap of putting business ahead of what we are here to accomplish, be it healing, spiritual counsel, etc... In my opinion our consciousness, spirituality and healing abilities should take a front seat and put the dollar in the back. I agree there should be an exchange of energy and money is a form of energy, but must we assign a dollar figure to every single gift we offer. If someone in need of food knocks at your door but has no money to pay, do you turn them away or do you feed them? I feel the same applies to spiritual feeding. If someone is spiritually or emotionally needy but cannot afford your fee, embrace them and give what you can. Jesus said, "It is more blessed to give than receive." And when you give, do so with love and an open heart. From my own experience giving always brings back more than you need.

Raising ourselves to our highest possible vibrations, we influence others simply through our energetic field. Did you know that when your energetic vibrations are high, they can travel up to 400 feet outside your body? Imagine what this world would be like if everyone had beautifully high energetic vibrations. The old lovefests back in Woodstock days would seem minuscule compared to the worldwide lovefest we would generate!!!

But I digress, back to ego. Our efforts need to be directed at expanding the ego, not enlarging it. Note the words I use here ~ expanding not enlarging. An expanded ego is free of blame, judgement, arrogance, piety, self-loathing and becomes like an ocean, ever expanding so the surging waters of the spirit can reach the farthest shores. An enlarged ego is one that defines itself solely by external stimuli and is empty of self-love and self-esteem.

Our soul longing can sometimes turn into infinite wanting and our need to shine becomes a narrow minded me-focus. Our soul's freedom is therefore (re)discovered when we relax our infinite wanting and face our deeper desire. Our soul's beauty is (re)discovered when we relax our me-focus and trust in our spontaneity. So our 'higher' and 'lower' self are not two separate beings in one person. They are simply two different ways that we deal with our personality. If you live from your ego you live purely within yourself, but, if you live from your soul, you are living in love. And to live in love is to live ~

And so it is ....

Home

Last night, after years of study and working my way through this beautiful journey of Reiki, I was honoured and blessed to be attuned and given the title of Reiki Master/Teacher.

I have no words, but afterwards I was given the opportunity to co-create these words with Spirit. I am so incredibly honoured and humbled to have reached this level and now the thought of being able to share this amazing gift with others through teaching brings me to my knees.

Home

The elusive dream, there but not seen

Just beyond my reach

If I stretch out my hand, can I grasp it?

Chasing after it for a lifetime

But never reaching it

But then with the touch of one hand

It is there, in front of me

I sense it, I see it, I hear it, I feel it ....

"Oh precious one, do you see the staircase?

Breathe deeply and begin your climb"

As I inhale beautiful, life giving air into every cell
I begin my ascension
In front of a magnificent door I stop and wonder
Should I push through into the unknown?

As it opens, all the beauty I have ever imagined

Is there, right in front of me
Assaulting my eyes with incomprehensible beauty, colour and light

"Take it in dear one" I hear them say

You have earned this gift

My eyes are blinded with the magnificence 

Of what is revealed to me

I am humbled, can it be that I have really arrived

My angels and guides hold and support me

Holding me as I breathlessly take in the beauty

I stand in reverence as I am bathed in violet light

And now a rainbow of colour showers down on me

Thousand of love drops

Covering me in glorious colour

Making me whole as every cell absorbs this healing colour

"Give us you hands" and as I do

They gently place within them my gift

Then they gently lead me back through the door

Back down the staircase, back to reality

But I'll never forget that moment

When I came home .....

Sound Healing

Today I had the privilege of participating in a workshop for vibrational sound healing using Tibetan singing bowls. A small group where a few played bowls and we all chanted in Sanskrit, both silently and out loud.

What a deeply moving experience, relaxing and beautiful meditations, detoxification and healing at a cellular level.

There are so many methods you can utilize to heal and this one I had never tried, but after the four hours of chanting, while listening, breathing and absorbing the beautiful tones of the bowls, I feel lighter today and experienced a physical detoxification last night.

Upon arriving at home, I found myself hearing these words which I of course, was compelled to record.

Take This

As the striker circles the rim of the bowl

Its song is released

Resonant with vibrations felt deep in my body

With tones as pure as celestial choirs

In unison we begin to chant

"Om Gum Shrim Maha Lakshmi Yei Swaha"

We set our intentions and the healing begins

I close my eyes, the energy flows

Once again I whisper the words

"Om Gum Shrim Maha Lakshmi Yei Swaha

There is magic in the air, an atmosphere of love

In my minds eye, there is a rainbow of colours

Surrounding me with many shades and hues

They whisper to me in the language of love

Bathing me in violets, golds and blue

The room where I sit has faded away
The chanting and tones are not part of this world
As I am joined by other souls

They circle me speaking words only I can hear

They stretch their arms out to me imploring me to "Take this"

I don't understand ~ their chanting intensifies

Once again they implore me, "Take this" 

I sense their departure, yet I still do not know

What they want me to take

Then the scene starts to fade

And I return to my senses, once again I hear the chanting

The vibrations of the singing bowls are in rhythm with my body

I'm slowly returning, feeling myself, my body, my breath, my heartbeat

My awareness takes in the others surrounding me

As they too return to their senses

After this deeply moving sound healing 
Which I take ....

My Body ~ My Temple

As I continue to open on this amazing spiritual awakening I have been gifted, my emotions have been turned upside down. I have healed many but still continue to work healing many others. Now, I find myself in great need of healing my body.

For my entire life, I have used food to comfort, to fill a void, to love myself when I felt unloved. But no more. I must look at my body as the sacred temple that houses my most beautiful soul. I must remember, it is a temporary housing that must regularly be cared for so that it will provide the needed strength to carry me through this lifetime.

Let us for a moment think about where we physically live. If our home developed a leak ~ would we not have it attended to immediately to prevent further damage. If our homes heating system broke down ~ would we not arrange to have it repaired so it would provide the necessary warmth in frigid winter temperatures. If a window was smashed ~ would we not replace it in order to keep what belongs on the outside in its place and protect the valuable loved ones inside. The same applies to my body, my temple ~ maintaining it should not be an afterthought which for my lifetime it has been.

So how will I change my thought processes and reach my ultimate goal of good health.

The first is discipline upon which I must work on to help me accomplish my goal. No more food to fill a void, no more eating just because.

The second is cravings. Here I will put my discipline to the ultimate test in fighting my cravings, looking deeply within as to why I constantly crave a certain type of food. What emotion drives me again and again to these empty, sugary food products? And what emotions are these products fuelling? What, if anything are they doing for me besides damaging the delicate balance of my health?

The third is to look at my food as the building blocks that will provide the needed energy for my body while honouring it. By not ingesting foods with lower vibrations, I honour my temple and allow it to grow into the strong body it should and will be.

This will be the hardest part yet of this amazing journey, as I have fed this body excesses of carbohydrates and sugars. So changing to a whole food approach, saying goodbye to these empty foods will take copious amounts of discipline, but I feel prepared for this challenge. The high energies this year with it's many super-moons has provided me quiet, down time where I have slowed myself and listened to the messages provided from spirit, many of which have been directly about my physical health and how I care for myself. I intend to enjoy my best possible health in these senior years and will continue working to reverse the damages I have caused through poor eating habits.

So, wish me luck as I slowly embark on this new and most difficult phase of my journey. Reminding myself each day that I AM WORTHY and that I am in my best possible health while making every effort to become the amazing woman I know I can be.

Here's to all our good health ...

The food you eat can be either the safest and most powerful form of medicine or the slowest form of poison ... Ann Wigmore

Eat beautiful foods, which are nutritionally dense, wholesome, and natural ... Bryant McGill

You are what you eat, what would like to be ... Julie Murphy