A Shaman ~ My Friend, My Healing

Today I was privileged to be the recipient of a reiki session with a dear friend who is a Celtic shaman and reiki master.

What an incredible experience!!! Her reiki was gentle and soothing much like herself. A beautiful CD of Sanskrit chanting quietly played in the background as we began. I felt myself falling deeper and deeper into that lovely place where nothing matters but the energy. As I went deeper, I went back through life after life until I found myself on a crystal clear lake with a woman in a white robe. She was familiar to me as I was to learn she was me, a powerful healer around the time of the Druids.

After our session, we discussed what she had felt and seen. She explained how she saw that I "swallowed" my emotions which is so true. Being raised in a highly religious home, sexuality was a taboo subject, good girls didn't do it and always waited till marriage. We were raised with the fear of going to hell and the judgement of what church friends would think if we stepped out of line. 

Consequently although I have undergone a massive healing over the past few years, there is still much to be healed. Acknowledging this is my first step. Having swallowed down emotions and not speaking my truths, I have developed physical symptoms which are my clue that I must heal this part of my psyche. Many, many, problems in and around my sacral and root chakra, digestive problems, years and years of issues with my reproductive system, multiple miscarriages, followed by surgeries to remove all of my reproductive organs. By repressing my emotions, I developed a hiatus hernia along with gastric reflux. So I realize that in order to physically heal, I must accept and love myself back to health. 

This I can and will accomplish ...

Following our beautiful session, I sat peacefully all afternoon co-creating with Spirit.

Healing

Her hands gently touch my face
The hands of this beautiful soul sister 

I feel the energy flow

Slowly at first, then faster and harder

My body and soul cries out for this energy

Dark, primal thoughts assault my senses

Ancient memories intrude

As past lives float in and out of my consciousness
On a crystal, glass lake I drift ~ I see a woman in a white robe
I am her and she is me
I am floating, I am rocking, I am pulsing 

The energy is soft, the energy is hard

It is gentle, it is everywhere 

My dreams are constantly interrupted

As my body tries to clear the blocks

I will myself to control my body's movements 

But they are stronger than my will

Muscles jump and my torso spasms
"Let the energies flow" I hear again and again

Now I sense her hands moving through my chakras

They are on me, in me, going through me

Our hearts beat as one as her soul lays gently on mine
And the energy opens, releases and clears the blocks

Throughout my body

Sweet, pure love is what I sense

Flowing through the hands of this woman I love

I have known her before, we are bound through our life experiences

The love is pulsing and beating to my very core

To the part of me that wants to stay hidden
It is awoken, crying out "heal me"

I am a goddess, I am divine
I am a healer and have healed

Through many, many lives
I see again the woman in white robes, we are one
A healer, a priestess, she walks through my mind
I am becoming who I was born to be
But first I must embrace myself ~ all of me
My spiritual, my emotional and my physical
Embrace my feminine self, my sexuality
Release the guilt, the deep dark parts of me
The parts I keep secret

Acknowledge, accept and release my shame

Lovingly accept all of me

Forgiving myself as I continue the healing journey

Towards this magnificent woman, in love with herself and her life

Always remembering ~ I am worthy ...

Human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind .... William James

The illusion holds power over you when you are not able to remember that you are a powerful spirit that has taken on the physical experience for the purpose of learning .... Gary Zukov