Morning Meditations

Last weekend I was privileged to spend time on a beautiful lake located in the area of Ontario known as the Canadian Shield. A beautiful part of our province with massive out croppings of granite that rise up out of the ground like giant monoliths.

As I sat on a dock in the lake, I looked up towards the massive hills surrounding the cottage and the awesome sight of these boulders that were everywhere. Evergreen trees grow up wherever they can find a scrap of soil in the crack of a rock. The cottage was even beautifully built around those same boulders, weaving stairs and pathways around the massive protuberances. The deck surrounding the cottage was beautifully built around a large piece of granite without altering it. This home was a beautiful example of living in harmony with nature.

And what a magnificent location to enjoy meditation, my reiki and communion.

Morning Voices

The house still sleeps as I steal down to the lake

In the stillness of the early morning

I gingerly step out onto the walkway 

That will take me to the dock, where completely surrounded by water

I see the mist swirling and curling 

It's way 'round the trees and rocks like a serpents tongue 

Before it settles down over the surface of the water

Laying down to rest before its' ultimate dissolution

The quietness of the morning

Wraps me in an embrace

And takes me to that familiar, blissful place

Where I can slip into meditation

Blissfully peaceful ~ no thoughts, no feelings

I let the energies flow around and through me
Reiki speaks to me, "Place your hands and let me flow"

In these quiet moments, I hear their voices

As they move through the mists and whisper their secrets to me

"Don't go to sleep, we have much to share with you"
When I close my eyes, their faces I perceive
Although the world yet sleeps

These energies do not as they surround and flow through me
Sharing the words I need to hear

To continue in my journey

Now their voices begin to fade

The energies begin to quiet as the world awakens
The sun breaks through the darkness

The waters' mirror like surface gives a second sun

As a loons call cracks through my silence

Now I emerge from my peacefulness

Slowly coming back to to the world

I hear the gulls crying above

As if to wake all those yet sleeping 

Slight ripples and waves lap against the dock

Gently rocking me as I still sit in peaceful reverie

I feel alive and invigorated

After this joining with nature

My oneness with all things living and gone

My psychic abilities awakened and fine tuned

I come back to my body, my senses awake

As I face this magnificent day I've been gifted

With gratitude, acceptance and love

Quiet the mind and the soul will speak .... Majaya Sati Bhagaviti

Life is available only in the moment ... Thich Nhat Hanh

Adopt the pace of nature ~ her secret is patience ... Ralph Waldo Emerson

Healers Need Healing Too

What an incredible few years this has been as I journey forward with my Reiki and now awakening my abilities as Shaman, mentoring with a beautiful soul ~ a Celtic Shaman. How privileged I am to have had these gifts awakened in me.

However even as one who shares these abilities with others on their healing journeys, we as healers are human too, we can be hurt, we cry, we feel pain, we feel loss. And we need to learn how to channel these situations into a learning experience so we may grow and move forward to even greater possibilities.

Early this year I went through a major surgery which traumatized my body and I am still, even seven months later working towards a full recovery. On the heels of that physical trauma, I suffered an emotional loss which left me shattered and fragile. I worked through it, releasing, cutting emotional cords and releasing some more. Or so I thought, until very recently when during meditations I was shown that my lower chakras ~ solar plexus, sacral and root were closed and not spinning. How shocked I was to learn this after having worked so hard to remove blocks and clear out many locked emotions. As I worked through this, it was also revealed to me that this was playing a major role in my healing process. As I said in a earlier blog post ~ in order for your life force to flow unimpeded, chakras must be open. Like a river that is blocked with debris, if even one chakra is closed, life force energies (Qi) cannot flow.

I had not realized how deeply this wound had cut me. So deeply in fact that I continued to hold onto an unreasonable fear deep in my gut that others with whom I shared a deep bond might also break my heart and trust, once again leaving me shattered. So now in order to move forward into my true potential, I must spend time in meditations and self healing to release this unreasonable fear, thereby allowing my sacral and root chakras to reopen allowing my beautiful Qi to flow once again.

Healing

The healing road is long and rough

A winding road with many turns
And seemingly insurmountable mountains

Along the way ~ 

Will I ever reach the end?

I thought I had healed after years of hard work

My chakras had opened, in harmony they spun

My heart wall came down, emotions released

I was strong, but then a trust was broken

As was my heart

Like a sail with no wind, I was empty

My trust shattered like fragile glass

How do I let go, how do I move on?
Cutting the emotional cords that bind us together

This loss of friendship and energies

Cut deeply into my soul

Can I trust I will have that love and bond again?

Dare I let myself go, allow someone else in

If I invest my all

Will I be shattered again?

Suddenly I knew, everything was different

My chakras were closed

Energies didn't flow as they had, physical pain had increased
In vain I searched for the path to come back

Should I let down my guard, share my emotions

What if I'm hurt again 

But then in the quiet of my meditations

I heard a voice speak softly to me

Remember dear heart ~ this is a gift

Embrace the pain, feel the pain, process the pain

And be open ~ there are lessons to be learned

Leave the hurts of the past behind you

And move into this moment

Use the hurt to strengthen your resolve

To stay true to your path 

Your destiny is as a powerful healer 

Sharing this gift with many
You will endure heartbreak and pain

And suffering is part of the path you must walk

Take the time to learn to heal yourself 

Acknowledge this and know you will heal

And in this knowledge you will become stronger

Allow the flow of energies to heal you and open your chakras

And rest in the knowledge that all is well and

Perfect ~

The wound is the place where the Light enters you 
... Rumi

The emotion that can break your heart, is sometimes the very one that can heal it 
... Nicolas Sparks

Our wounds are often the openings into the best and most beautiful part of us 
... David Richo

Global Meditation

Yesterday I had the privilege of joining over 100,000 people in a global meditation as we joined our energies together to send our intentions of peace throughout the world.

There are no words to describe the sensations I felt as we were led in a beautiful meditation by Deepak Chopra and Gabby Bernstein. India Arie sang her beautiful new song, "I Am Light" as we all joined together in meditation.

Deepak asked as he gently started the meditation, "what does peace mean to you?" A difficult question when I ponder it on a larger scale, but in just my own soul, it means a state of mind to me. Peaceful acceptance of everything in my life, my circumstances, my sufferings, my relationships, my gifts, my thoughts.

The meditation itself was lovely, I was instantly engulfed by multiple energies swirling around my body. Thousands of different energies laid bare my heart chakra with pulse after pulse. It truly was an amazing experience to meditate simultaneously with that many people across the world at one time.

And to be guided through it by Deepak Chopra ~ incredible.

Thousands of energies

Coming together for peace

I lay in solitude

As I give myself over

To the beautiful voice

That soothes my soul

And lulls me into that quiet place

In my soul

What does peace mean to you?

It quietly asks as I breathe in and out

Focus on that peace

Let it surround you and then send it

Out into the world

I feel my heart pulsing

I feel energies rushing through me and around me

A sensation of togetherness 

The beauty of thousands of souls joining together

As one ~

I drift in my peaceful environment

As I send my peaceful intentions to the world

Then I hear the voice

That quietly brings me back from my reverie

Suddenly, I am emotionally overwhelmed

As tears spill down my face

I can still feel my heart pulsing

To the beat of a thousand other hearts

They cannot be controlled

I am overwhelmed with gratitude

For this moment in time

When I was able to offer

Something back

My peace, my love, my all ...

We can never obtain peace in the outer world until we make peace with ourselves ... Dalai Lama

Peace cannot be kept by force; it can only be achieved by understanding .... Albert Einstein

Peace comes from within, do not seek it without ... Buddha

Be Still

This magnificent journey I am being led on takes me down many new roads, one of which has been writing.

I sit with pen in hand and let the spirits lead me where they will. Afterwards as I read, I am surprised at the beauty of the words that have flowed from my hand ....

All is chaos
Everything swirls around me
Like a maelstrom
That threatens to pull me down
Into it's depths where I will be lost

My soul in agony cries for release
From its' physical constraints
"Let me take the lead", it cries
"And if you follow
I will bring you home"

"I see my destination
I hear the spirits calling to me
If you will let me answer
I will show you the way"

I must leave the chaos behind
Pull myself from this maelstrom
Which threatens my very existence
The physical dis-ease which plagues my every waking moment
Cries to be released from this body

But then I sense a stillness and peace
Somewhere deep within my soul
A deep thirst cries to be satisfied
I reach out to grasp that which cannot be confined

The size is beyond my comprehension
No borders, no boundaries
Real but unreal
I must possess this feeling

Now, everything else drops away
My soul is suddenly released
The chrysalis that once held this butterfly
Has broken open ~ I am released
I have won my freedom ~ I can fly

To a place of peace, to a place of love
To a place of complete contentment
Were they always there?
In front of me, but unseen by these eyes

I have arrived
I am love and peace
I am complete contentment
I am everything that was, is and will be
I have learned ~ to be still

Suffering ~ The Ultimate Teacher

As humans we are at some point in our lives going to suffer. It could be physically or emotionally or both.

When we ponder the subject of suffering, naturally questions arise, why do some suffer more than others, why do children suffer, why must the elderly frequently suffer as they approach death? As physical beings we cannot answer these questions, so we use our reasoning. We experience a death, so naturally we expect we will suffer grief, we are stricken with a disease, therefore it must have been our unhealthy lifestyles, we struggle with depression, it must therefore be the stress brought on by career, family or poor life choices.

But what if we turn the tables on suffering and not look at it as a burden but a gift. Let us not equate suffering with the physical egotistical body, but rather a gift bestowed divinely as a path through which we may learn valuable life lessons, practice humility and tolerance and most of all to learn empathy.

Eckhart Tolle says, "Suffering drives you deeper. The paradox is that suffering is caused by identification with form and erodes identification with form. A lot of it is caused by the ego, although eventually suffering destroys the ego ~ but not until you suffer consciously. Humanity is destined to go beyond suffering, but not in the way the ego thinks.

One of the ego's many erroneous assumptions, one of its many deluded thoughts is "I should not have to suffer." Sometimes the thought gets transferred to someone close to you: "My child should not have to suffer." That thought itself lies at the root of suffering.

Suffering has a noble purpose: the evolution of consciousness and the burning up of the ego. The man on the cross is an archetypal image. He is every man and every woman. As long as you resist suffering, it is a slow process because the resistance creates more ego to burn up.

When you accept suffering, however, there is an acceleration of that process which is brought about by the fact that you suffer consciously. You can accept suffering for yourself, or you can accept it for someone else, such as your child or parent.

In the midst of conscious suffering there is already the transmutation. The FIRE of suffering becomes the LIGHT of consciousness."

As we allow our consciousness to go deeper into our suffering, we become more attuned to our soul ~ our inner light if you will. We start to recognize that the suffering serves to deepen our connection to our spirituality and the Divine. 

Oh yes, there are great lessons to be learned from suffering and great gifts to share once we accept it. But don't fall prey to the notion that you are your suffering. Do not allow your suffering to identify who you truly are. And do not let your suffering snuff out your beautiful inner light. 

Become the student, sit at the foot of your pain, allow it to be your teacher and guide as you navigate through the waters to the true awakening of your spirit.

The beauty of Reiki, meditation, yoga or other methods of deep healing within can help you in your journey towards acceptance.

With blessings and light, I wish for you that suffer to be able move towards acceptance and calm as you open to the guidance and lessons that await you ~

The depth of learning is in direct relation to the intensity of the experience ... Robert Monroe 

Always know and remember that you are more than your physical body ... Robert Monroe